I have been on one hell of a support kick lately. My friend Vicki got herself a gym membership at Ballys. She has been going for almost 5 months now and she has lost something like 56 pounds. Now when I heard that she was going I was a little sad that I hadn't the money to go as well, but I was very proud of Vicki for all that she had accomplished. But somehow the Universe agreed that I needed to loose some weight, cause out of the blue the money was there for me to join as well. (Nothing like the UNIVERSE saying you have a huge ass now do something about it)!

I still haven't seen any results that can compare to my dear friend. Every week she is loosing 2 pounds or so. However I let her know that I am proud of her, and I give her honest critiques. When she asks me if I can see her result I don't blow smoke up her ass if I don't.  But as of late, every week she looks like a new woman. She is very honest with me as well. She has yet to see any results from me. I hardly see anything myself.  But she is supportive as well, she told me to stop obsessing over the numbers on the scale and to measure myself instead. So I did, and so far I have been going for a month and I have lost 1 inch around the abdomen, 1/2 inch on my arms, 1 inch around my waist, and my thighs I gained an inch (ALL MUSCLE BABY!!! I think). Not as much as I would have liked but it is what it is.  

My friend has a co worker Laura who is constantly pissed that she hasn't lost as much as my friend Vicki. She is truly angry that she hasn't lost anything. But she hardly ever goes to the gym and she is constantly eating the wrong foods. Laura has gotten to the point that she has busted out yelling "I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE" in the office whenever anyone gives Vicki a complement. Vicki has begun to feel bad about the fact that she has lost some much weight (not cool). The messed up part to this is that Vicki in the last month has lost her husband. He has decided to leave her for someone else. So she has been going through a lot of stress and hard ache. Laura knows this and is fed up with people wishing Vicki well. SHE'S A TRUE HARPY!    Even when she knows that not only is she loosing her husband, but her house as well. Laura still can't see that maybe she should have some compassion for Vicki and be selfless for once.

Anyway, I have tried to help Vicki by keeping her going to the gym and working on herself in a positive way (gave her my copy of The Secret). We go everyday except on Friday's. I don't like to workout so much, but I know that Vicki getting out of the house and working out keeps her occupied on her health then on her husband leaving, and loosing her house. We always talk about what she's feeling and I make it a point to keep my ears, and my heart open for her. I try always to see the bright side to her situation and I try to make laughing a huge part of helping her in this time. The unexpected part is that I‘ve begun to notice a side affect for me. Since I too am going to the gym and although I haven't seen the results that I want to see. The results of taking care and supporting my friend through this rough patch is helping me in a spiritual way. I can see the hand of the Devine Goddess guiding me with the right words to help Vicki. I'm crying now L because I went through the same thing that Vicki is going through right now and although my husband didn't leave me for another woman (he almost did), and I was loosing my house as well. I didn't have anyone who was there to help me. So in that way it is different. But since I can relate to a lot of what she is feeling I have noticed this experience is defiantly making our friendship stronger and teaching us how we can overcome a lot, be it weight, Property, and or heartache.

The Goddess gives you the words to help one another and sometime that's all that's needed.  

Remember to help family, friends, and strangers when you can. The good feelings you get are worth it!

Blessed be  

I guess the Universe wasn't thinking of me at all Well after I stood outside sweating my but off (which is needed) I checked the car 4 times at least. My girlfriend at work says give me your key I'll take a look. Not even a minute goes by and she brings me my glasses and says that they where just under my seat.  WTF I checked there and ran my hand across every inch of that car even in places I knew it couldn't be. So Diana found them for me I think the Goddess Diana just helps out women who are named after her...

The Universe is a freaky right now. Ok I lost my glasses today. I was leaving the CVS around the corner from my job. I have two pair (prescription) one for the sun and my regular all day kind. So I take off my regular pair and I put on my sun glasses. I have them when I leave the CVS and when I get in the car, I put them on the passenger seat next to me (like I always do). I go to the ATM they are still with me. I park in my spot at work. I reach over for my glasses to put them in my purse and they are nowhere to be found. I get out of the car and look, nothing. I go back to the CVS, nothing. I check the CVS bag just in case they fell in there, and you guessed it, nothing!!! They just f----in vanished. I'm taking it as a sign that I need to be careful and watch my surroundings. Well, now I'm wearing my contacts that I never where and I'm tripping out at how these glasses just disappeared. I've never lost a pair of glasses before.

So what do you think?

 My daughter and I are going to stay in and maybe make a dress or two. She's 10, and has been trying to make her own dresses. She has a good idea of what to do. But I think that she needs to learn how to use the sewing machine to be able to further her ideas along. I'm not that great when it comes to making clothes. However, every now and again I crank out a masterpiece. So far that has been twice.

The reason for the girl's night in is because, lately I have been on a mission to loose some weight and since I've been at the gym 6 days out of the week my daughter is feeling the affects of mommy not being there. So today it's about her and me bonding. I think that it's funny how much she is missing me, and how my son is totally fine without me. I tell ya kids are funny that way. Anyway I'm going to try to make a pretty blouse for this new body I'm working on. If the blouse turns out nice and actually looks good on me, I'll post a picture. If neither happens, this is the way the blouse is supposed to look like.  

 I have noticed that as of late I am becoming sensitive to energy/spirits. One scary as all hell (this one is gone now) and others that just watch.. I know that I have always wanted to have this ability and now I think it's coming to fruition, I think that I'm in for it. Not in a bad way but I don't sleep as well as I used to. I feel like I'm always being watched. My husband says that I'm being scanned by aliens (he's a smart ass) I think he's just tired of being awaken in the middle of the night with me asking the dumbass question did  you see that!!!

I would like to know if anyone has seen any little lights flying over there face in the middle of the night. I've seen these little tiny lights, green and yellow in color floating together (about 20 or so) and I just thought that I was seeing a new version of eye floaters. But the other night, I was sleeping when my cat started to jump on the bed, and I saw a tiny light shinning on my closed eyes.  I thought that my husband was trying to be funny and mess with me with a very tiny, very accurate laser pointer. But the light was gold. Anyway my cat jumped on my face (thank Goddess I trim her nails) and I opened my eyes in time to see something float away. Now the only reason why I don't believe I'm nuts is because my cat saw it as well. So has anyone seen something like this??? Or knows what the heck is going on, like what am I seeing? Should I dare record myself  while I sleep? I'm kinda freaked out about doing that because there is nothing like seeing some shit on video to confirm that you are being watched.

   I found this on line and this is color of the light that shined on my face and the pattern of swarming lights that I saw the other time, only they were bright green and yellow.

  If this helps my cat seemed to be playing around trying to catch  the light and I didn't feel threatened, I was just surprised by what I saw.

 Screamingfawn